This morning I heard this Christmas song for the first time this season. As the haunting melody began....it took me back to the first time I recall hearing this song. Just about 3 years ago - as I was driving myself and my children up to my parents house for our Christmas visit. We had just found out on December 9th that we would lose Karinne and were desperately trying to come to grips with the devastating news. She was safe and sound inside of me.....How could this be? And how could I endure what was to come?
I heard these pleading words spoken from the standpoint of Mary the mother of Christ. And I couldn't help but feel how the words completely applied to my own life at that moment. Every phrase - a prayer - straight from my soul to heaven. Tears streamed down my face as I drove, listened, and wondered . . .
I have traveled many moonless nights
Cold and weary with a babe inside
And I wonder what I've done
Holy Father, You have come
And chosen me now
to carry Your Son
I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load I bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now,
be with me now
Now this morning as I heard those same words, the tears flowed down again and those same feelings came flooding back.
Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness
for You are holy
Breath of Heaven
Do you wonder as you watch my face
If a wiser one should have had my place?
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of Your plan
Help me be strong,
help me be,
help me
Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness
for You are holy
Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness
for You are holy
Breath of Heaven,
Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven
Thankful to God for holding me together, for being near me, for lightening my darkness, and for sending His son to earth. Thankful that this December and the coming of this Christmas seems brighter, more beautiful and more hope-filled than the last 3.
